Zach Urlocker lost his mother Mary to ovarian cancer on July 4th. During the last year of Mary's struggles and challenges in her fight against ovarian cancer, Zach blogged Tuesdays With Mary as a way to keep family and friends informed of his mother's progress. He also wanted to be a resource for other families facing ovarian cancer. In a recent post, Zach shares that shortly after his mother died, the family discovered a diary. The family was not aware that she had kept a diary. At the time of the discovery of Mary's diary, Zach said he could not bring himself to read it, and the diary sat on his desk for several weeks. Finally opening the pages, he describes the writing as raw and personal. He has chosen to share some entries that his mother wrote on the Tuesdays With Mary blog.
Mary's diary begins, April 29, 1999 -- Hysterectomy. This is my journal, so I believe I can swear all I want to. Today we saw Dr. Manus (chemo) -- overwhelming -- 3 hrs there -- I feel that I had no control over what is happening. Would like to run away & hide ... continue reading here.
1. I give you this one thought to keep,
I am still with you...I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints in the snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet
birds in circling flight,
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not think of me as gone....
I am with you still....
In each new dawn.
May God watch over you and your children.
Posted at 11:18AM on Aug 15th 2006 by James Kirk