Seven sweet, simple words were hurled at me last night by my oldest child, Joey -- the boy who makes me as crazy as he does happy.Joey, six, was all snuggled in bed, cozy with his soft blankets, squishy pillows, and three favorite stuffed puppies. I gave him my usual speech -- Sweet dreams. I love you. Now don't get out of bed -- and then made my usual trek to another room for some me-time. My trip was stopped short, though, because a strong urge inspired me to reverse my steps and return to Joey.
"What are you doing, mommy?" Joey asked as I walked back into the room.
"I thought I'd come rest with you for a little bit," I told him. "Is that OK?" I asked, knowing full well any excuse to avoid sleep is just fine with him
Joey sat straight up, pure joy coloring his tired face. I took this to mean he welcomed my return. And so I crawled into bed and hugged Joey tight. And that's when he spoke the seven words that caused tears to pour from my eyes -- the kind of tears that spill out when the human body can no longer harness its emotion.
The words:
"Mommy, I love you so, so much."
Ever since Joey blessed me with these words, I can't seem to get one thought out of my head.
The thought:
God, I hope I survive cancer long enough to hold this boy in my arms until he is all grown up, until he is wrapping his arms around his own loving child.
I really hope this is not too much to ask.











1. Well Jacki, it sounds as if you managed some exceptional quality time with little Joey. I am happy for the both of you.
Just take each day as it comes to you. No one can promise cancer will not show it's ugly face again. Just make each day count. Quality time and your quiet times, do what brings you happiness.
Happiness to you, tears and all.
Take care all, Jason
Posted at 3:42PM on Apr 1st 2007 by Jason Chambers